Dear Lord,

all i really need right now, is a prayer for strength. I am scared and yet, i am risking the one and only person ive ever loved so much. Sometimes, i just want to be alone and then i can ask myself, how will i be able to get a hold on this relationship. How will i be able to let him be single, and yet attached? He is right. There is always a pang of uneasiness when either one of us mix with persons (or person) of a different gender. That's why i need the strength Lord. I need assurance because i hate this feeling. I hate that feeling i get when he's spending his time with someone else but not me. I dont want to be selfish because I hate being selfish. I already wished right from the start that we'd give each other ample space, but here i am feeling shitty coz i am reluctant to give him that space.

Teach me how to deal with this.

So many events have taken place that has caused us to fall apart. Many times ive blamed myself. I know thered be a day when the volcano erupts and itll no longer be reconcilliable. I dread that day Lord..

I felt his hand while i was asleep today. They seemed to want to fill the gap thats in between my fingers. Now i wished i had held onto them tightly. At least he'd still know that i love him - too much. That was such a moment to treasure and yet, my broken heart let that go.

I understand that every relationship will have its flaws but.. I dont wanna hurt. My other half is telling me that i should appreciate all that hes done for me. There's too much. That i shouldnt cook up a storm just because he feels uneasy. I know whatever that ive done will never cover what hes done for me. So teach me how to love him like how i should. Teach my brain to tell my soul that i shouldnt take him forgranted. Remind me that i really love him, that i really want us to go more than a long long way.

Why do i always cry when im sad? Can you please take my tears away? Love is a beautiful thing because you created it, but i abused it. I need you more than ever Lord. Please teach me how to love the way you love your children. Because i know i really need it now.

Amen.

Dear Lord,

all i really need right now, is a prayer for strength. I am scared and yet, i am risking the one and only person ive ever loved so much. Sometimes, i just want to be alone and then i can ask myself, how will i be able to get a hold on this relationship. How will i be able to let him be single, and yet attached? He is right. There is always a pang of uneasiness when either one of us mix with persons (or person) of a different gender. That's why i need the strength Lord. I need assurance because i hate this feeling. I hate that feeling i get when he's spending his time with someone else but not me. I dont want to be selfish because I hate being selfish. I already wished right from the start that we'd give each other ample space, but here i am feeling shitty coz i am reluctant to give him that space.

Teach me how to deal with this.

So many events have taken place that has caused us to fall apart. Many times ive blamed myself. I know thered be a day when the volcano erupts and itll no longer be reconcilliable. I dread that day Lord..

I felt his hand while i was asleep today. They seemed to want to fill the gap thats in between my fingers. Now i wished i had held onto them tightly. At least he'd still know that i love him - too much. That was such a moment to treasure and yet, my broken heart let that go.

I understand that every relationship will have its flaws but.. I dont wanna hurt. My other half is telling me that i should appreciate all that hes done for me. There's too much. That i shouldnt cook up a storm just because he feels uneasy. I know whatever that ive done will never cover what hes done for me. So teach me how to love him like how i should. Teach my brain to tell my soul that i shouldnt take him forgranted. Remind me that i really love him, that i really want us to go more than a long long way.

Why do i always cry when im sad? Can you please take my tears away? Love is a beautiful thing because you created it, but i abused it. I need you more than ever Lord. Please teach me how to love the way you love your children. Because i know i really need it now.

Amen.